My life was spiraling out of control, I had lost respect for myself and I was humbled and relieved that Mistress was indeed in control. Indeed it was soon to be a life changing experience. I had no idea that I would be mentally and emotionally consumed by mistress The delight and glee on mistress was self evident. Her laughter at my pain made me want to please and appreciate her even more. I had to focus and I was reminded to be respectful and thankful for each pull, slap, pinch, twist; mistress deriving great pleasure at my suffering. That was my sole purpose to please, yet I found myself wanting and I held back from asking for more. I had not communicated my hopes and aspirations and now I was regretting it even more. I feel alive, I feel pain, I feel emotion I am free of my own self imposed, self limiting belief. Mistress has set me upon a journey of self discovery, I can me my own man. I must face my fear and fight vowing never to give up, mistress has freed me from the abyss of life. I am so honored to serve my mistress, she focused my mind sets me free to express and be me. I was thankful as it was my first session but hopefully not my last. I asked myself had I pleased my mistress, did she delight in my suffering or was I merely a tedious and tiresome bore. Upon leaving I sat quietly wondering if I would ever be allowed to see mistress again.
Thank You